INSPIRATION, LIFE

The 30Thirty Challenge

2 August 2015

Hi guys,
As promised, today I’m revealing the mystery around my 30Thirty challenge.

So why the 30? Because 30 sounds nice don’t you think? Lol, just kidding! No, I chose 30 firstly because not only are there 30 days left til September, but in 30 days scientific research has proved that the human mind and body are capable of impressive progress and change when put to test. Secondly, because I believe that there are as many ways to success as there are failed attempts at trying.
So over the next 30 days I will literally make 30 attempts to reach my goal! Poof! Rocket science! Lol!

Okay, enough with the theoretical blah-blah, Teekay, what’s the BIG challenge!

Well, the subject is a little touchy (at least for me it is).
One of the reasons why I’ve decided to open up about it now, is because I truly believe in the positive power of accountability and sharing our experiences.

Growing up, I definitely wasn’t the Naomi Campbell of my group of friends. Okay, so I wasn’t Ugly Betty either, but I was what we call today a “curvy sista” – big booty and big tities on top of every other horrible change that comes your way as a teenager! The least I can say is, had it not been for my solid academic, cultural and sport track record, I’d have suffered a WHOLE LOT more.
But not everything was bad growing up though, if you pur aside the constant mockery and stares from some of my peers. Trust me, when your behind has the nickname “Mount Ararat” and you’re literally the butt (excuse the pun) of your friend’s jokes because of your “ass-et“, no A+ in French or Physics can save your fragile ego.

Needless to say, It took me a long time to get over. 11 years in total!

Reaching 30 has by far been a major turning point for me on various levels. Professionally – I’m doing pretty well. Emotionally – I’ve found the only person I feel I’m capable of spending the rest of my life with. Lol! Spiritually – I’ve learned to let go of certain things from the past and holding on to meaningless relationships and feelings….albeit one in particular. The “I’m-still-a-Fatty-syndrome“.

Yes, believe it or not.

Living in Paris naturally hasn’t helped my “body-esteem” much. French women live up to their reputation of being generally very slim and effortlessly elegant without even trying…. This said, I’m working on my own definition of le French chic, even though I can’t help but wonder whether my behind would have been a hit in a more tropical destination….Just a thought!

Anyway, my male colleagues and I have a somewhat “conflictual” relationship. It isn’t so much a question of incompatibility of personalities as it is a question of hierarchy and performance – I guess not all men digest drive and ambition from a female very well! Lol! Anyway, I recently overheard one of them call me a “fat cow”. Like WT…! Had I been skinny, it would have passed me over in a second, but as someone who considers herself a “fatty”, it certainly got me thinking.

It’s been two weeks now but those words have sat in my mind, marinating like a big, greasy, pork chop! Need I say; I’m still furious! Firstly, because “really, the nerve”! And secondly “geesh, do people seriously see me as fat?”

Well, truth is I have gotten a little complacent about my body and watching what I eat lately and necessarily a little tighter in my clothes. Work has been a priority since my promotion so I guess certain things got naturally been pushed aside. This remark was definitely the catalyst and “kick in the behind” I needed to get back on track!

So I’ve decided to lose a few kilos (10 to be exact!). Of course I’m aware they won’t disappear over night, let alone in the next 30 days, but one thing I’m certain of is that my 30 attempts at my goal will at least bring me that much closer.

Having in the past followed a great eating and lifestyle plan that focused on group dynamics, I can most certainly vouch on the benefits of being accountable.
By making one’s goal “public” it creates a sort of obligation or need to succeed as a means to avoid disappointing the people vouching for you.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not asking you for your support – being called a “fat cow” definitely gave me all the motivation I need for the next 10 years….Lol!
What I am doing though, is inviting any of you who haven’t yet found the resolve to confront your demons – whatever they are, to make a conscious decision to take the necessary steps over the next 30 days to overcome whatever it is that is holding you back!

It takes 15 days to break a bad habit, and 15 days to start a new one!

What will your 30Thirty challenge be?

Come on, let’s write this chapter together!

Love
Teekay xx

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Comments

  1. Ingrid Cauchi

    3 August 2015 at 10:09 PM Reply

    Hey Babe! You really have got style and you seem to have adopted the French sense of effortless dresses. Don’t let these idiots call you “fat cow”… there will always be comments because we all have something different; fat cow, skinny bitch, big tits, blond etc. (don’t worry I was somewhat of an ugly betty in my teenage years). It is was makes us unique. It’s great that you have turned this nasty comment into a positive thing… it will surely help you get out of bed on a Sunday morning to hit the gym, and will help you take healthy decisions when you reach for a something sweet. We need some motivation after all. Currently I’m trying to lose my extra 10 kg too because apart from being thinner, I want to be fitter, healthier and continue running marathons as much as I can 🙂 I will surely follow your weight loss throughout. We can do this together 😉 keep what you are doing xxx

    1. Teekay

      8 August 2015 at 3:25 PM Reply

      Ingrid Hun, so sorry for the late reply. Your comment has truly made my day. Thank you for your lovely words and kind support as usual. I truly wish you success and peace of mind when you’ll too have reached your personal goal. Love to you beautiful. Teekay xxx

  2. blogmoninstant

    8 August 2015 at 2:47 PM Reply

    Hi love !

    Okay, first of all, I need to tell you that this is one of the best inspirational, challenging, and positive blog posts I’ve ever read. You turn your rage into power and your power into action, and that’s really amazing.

    Now, talking about that s…bag, gosh, how I wish to hit him ! Those j…s really get on my nerves. They can’t stand the fact of seeing a woman doing better than them, like what the f-word is wrong with you ?! Man or woman, THAT DOESN’T MATTER ! If you’re not happy with that, try harder, maybe you’ll get there, if not, WHO CARES ?! Just because THEY are bitter, they have to bring other downs, and because you’re a woman, it’s even more of a reason … Man, and they say feminism is useless …

    But let’s focus on what’s important there : you. I’m grateful to you, for sharing your story in order to inspire others. For letting go out in the world those deep thoughts so they can echo in someone’s heart. I agree with you that sharing our experiences is the one way to turn our weaknesses into our strength.

    I myself want to get to do a little bit of sport so I can build that fit body I so want but was never trying to get. I’ll alondside with you on acting so each day gets me closer to what I want. So each step becomes the march towards the better me.

    Thanks Teekay, for sharing your strength with all of us. Be happy, you deserve to be. Make that step towards that image you want, but don’t forget to enjoy yourself and your life ’cause you being happy is the real revenge against all odds.

    Love you deeply,

    Marion. ♥

    1. Teekay

      8 August 2015 at 3:30 PM Reply

      Thank you my beautiful Marion! Having you by my side is the added bonus everyday! You’re like my “little” “big” sister ready to punch anyone bothering me in the face! Totally love that I can count on you always. I feel so much better when I can truly open up to my followers and speak from the heart. There really is no use to pretending to have mega super powers or acting like “normal feelings” aren’t an issue when you’re in the public eye. I just want to be relatable and for people to realize that being real and accepting or facing our personal challenges in an authentic way is the ONLY true way forward. Love you immensely and don’t worry if you’re ever in Paris, I’ll whip your butt back into tip top form. Lol! Love you xx

  3. Paida

    19 August 2015 at 1:52 PM Reply

    Dearest Teekay,

    Your drive is incredible! If I ever overheard someone calling me a “fat cow” I’d curl up in bed and cry myself to sleep! But you’ve spun it around completely, using those negative words to empower and motivate you! You are so not a fat cow, by the way. You are beautiful, inside-out!

    I’m late to the party but I know if there’s anyone who can reach their goals, it’s you! Thank you for sharing your life so openly with us <3

    Paida

    1. Teekay

      26 August 2015 at 11:44 PM Reply

      Aaaw Paida honey! You still know how to earn my heart love!!! Miss you so dam much & so wish you were a part of this journey like back then. Remember our sport freak days.
      Thank you for shinning your positive light & energy on me like only you know how. Miss you beautiful. Love you LS xxx

  4. Anonymous

    27 August 2015 at 3:21 PM Reply

    Girl you’re not a fat cow. You’re gorgeous in every way possible. I can take that booty any time…lol

    mimi60260

    1. Teekay

      2 September 2015 at 8:16 PM Reply

      Thank you Hun. I most absolutely do feel reassured hearing it from perfect strangers. xxx

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